Dunno if this is the right section, lol. It's Art-related I can give you that...
The name's Jeff, I started teaching myself to draw a while back, but it was in December that I decided that I would get a few books and what not, so obviously not really that good at it, but I've run into a bit of a wall.
So, I really like drawing and painting and stuff, or mainly the idea of it, no matter at what level at skill I am, I guess, but when you are doing something you like, you should be having fun or something along those lines.
Often, I find myself really frustrated and tense over not being able to draw or paint what I want to, so I guess my source of frustration is my lack of skill?
So the logical thing to do would be to learn stuff,
Okay so there I'm learning, trying to get stuff down, reading books be it Loomis or Bridgman, Anatomy or that Juliette Aristides book, or watching stuff, , Structure of a Man, Hale's lectures or whatever (which I have trouble doing, to be honest, I play them at 1.5x speed, haha. [That means I'm impatient right? Is that why I'm frustrated? Would everything turn out the
way I want it to if I just give it enough time?])
Anyway, I look at my stuff and realise that it really isn't that good, I don't really like it at all,
I guess it's sort of how people look at their bodies?
"When it becomes what I want, then I will be happy."
So in terms of weight, basically if you appreciate your body in terms of what it is now, then it will change to how you perceive it?
I think that's how I look at my drawings, I think I will start really enjoying it when I can draw really well. I mean don't get me wrong, I really do love it, I do have fun, I just don't really love the frustration that comes along with it. I want my creations to be better, so if I start liking what I create will they become better? If I start appreciating my level of skill will that sort of stop me from telling myself I suck, hence removing something that could be hindering progress?
I mean, the level of frustration is lower now than it was before..
How does one go about learning?
There is this arrogance people have about their work that really annoys me, it's kind of like randomly shoving your (not you, per se, but 'you' in general) business card in someone's face, they didn't ask for it! Why would they want it you self righteous pretentious little ASS. Man, I really hope that I don't come across like that.
ANYWAY, so basically I'm not sure of how to go about this. Do I go back to basics?
I read though it and sort of realised how pointless this whole thing was, lol
but you know, I think I should post it anyway, there are a few questions in there... somewhere..
So in summary: Am I reading too much into this? Am I worried over nothing?
Maybe it's just one giant thing I made up as an excuse for my lack of progress.. hahhah.
And in even shorter summary: AMIDOINITRITE?
Thanks for reading, even if you only did read the short summary
on another note, I'm writing a graphic novel! like actually writing, I'll hopefully be done with rewriting when i can draw coherently..
Ugh. I still feel as if I didn't get what I meant to say across. DDD: