So I just wanted to vent to the ca'ers
I am having a really hard time as an artist but its strange because I don't think I have ever produced better visuals or writing than I am right now. The one thing that I have been trying so desperately to achieve is making the transition from the industry I am in now to the film/videogame industry for the past year and it has been a really frustrating experience.
So last night I was offered a job at the company I am with now, one of those people really do make that kind of money every month kind of jobs...and I took it.
It is in business operations, my own office, parking space, my own staff, my own 80 hour work week...basically everything 'work' can offer.
Then this morning I woke up, saw all of my tear stained screenwriting and all of my blood soaked conceptuals sitting on my coffee table and called them back to let them know...
I can't take the job.
Am I fucking nuts?!! Can this dream of mine really matter THAT much to me?!! More than I even thought I knew?!!!