I open this thread seeking for a particular kind of guidance.
After almost a year of drawing (billions of books, dvds, courses, etc) I feel I made some progress comparing to my previous stick figures.
Now, even if I'm quite pleased with how everything is going, there's one thing I still can't accept in drawing: I don't know how I do it. And if I know it, usually the drawing sucks (that's my general rule).
There is clearly not a systematic way to learn drawing; I think everybody has his own processes and mental shortcuts. Why it's so difficult for me to understand mines?
My best drawings come from gestures, quick sketches and lines that aren't planned. But drawing isn't just a creative, istinctive art; it is completed and finalized by logic and analysis. If I use this second set of skills, I fail, always: the drawing looses all its life, all the rhythm (as it's called).
Why this bothers me? Because I feel that this will just lead me to observational drawing; if I look at something, I can quickly sketch it but I'm not analyzing it, I'm not constructing it. I don't understand what I'm doing and this frustrates me.
I compare this with playing guitar: when I started to learn I knew I had to practice chords (chunks of music) and riffs (smaller chunks) in order to play them in an instictive manner. They told me "you'll be frustrated for the first year or so but continue practicing these chords and riffs and, everyday, they'll sound better and you'll play them in a natural way". I sticked to that because it was a plan! Slowly all those chords and licks became second nature and I started to feel the connection between all of that stuff. Now making music on guitar feels natural to me.
But maybe that's connected with my natural skills; it is so easy for me to remember a melody, to hum it, to find right pitches and to recognize music. On the opposite I've always had a hard time visualizing stuff, even if I've tried to train my visualization skills. What's curious is that I come from families of painters; my father was a painter, my grandfather too and his father too etc. I've always been encouraged not to draw in my life but that's another story...
Why am I not finding such "paths" in my drawing practice?
What am I missing in your opinions?
It really bothers me that, in order to draw well, I gotta stay in a sort of trance state; if I get out of that, I can't draw!
I hope this all makes sense to someone; my mind is quite a trip so... thanks for following!