I wonder if I posted a similar thread before but...no, it's not likely. I came up with this idea fairly recently.
I was a pretty well-motivated artist until the beginning of 2005. Then I was struck with a shocking event that caused a catastrophic depression, which caused unbearable psychosomatic pain. The pain was so severe that I attempted suicide in 2007. I survived and the pain was gone.
But the motivation never came back. Now I am 34 and finally graduated Cal State Fullerton this Spring/May. I don't know what to do beside going to figure drawing workshop. I am a fairly good draughtman, but I suck at everything else. I am considering building a portfolio to apply for a training program in Disney, and before that I plan to attend Concept Design Academy this Fall. I missed the Summer semester. Hopefully I can get enough amount to settlement from my major car accident to finance the classes at CDA.
But, without some proper, and direct guidance I can't do anything by myself. I don't know what to draw or paint. Somehow I signed up for the color comp class by Bill Perkins coming week, I simply don't have the will and motivation to draw or paint anything.
But I don't want to give up art.
It would be nice if there's a pill that gives me the willpower to do what I want to do, but I don't see anything like that. I tried 5-HTP, but my brain quickly adapted into it. So I am looking into meditation. Meditation, with only a few sessions, helped me get rid of my chronic insomnia caused by the shocking event in 2005. I wonder it will cure my lack of motivation, too.