Once I hit my Junior year in highschool and was taking more advanced art classes. I somehow got it in my head that if I were to be drawing I need to be drawing something amazing.
I used to draw for fun and random ideas I had--without worrying about composition or anything of the sort. I just drew for the hell of it.
Ever since the art classes I've somehow put into my head that I need to be working harder or not at all.
I know I have great anatomy skills. And I'm very happy with the style of art I'm drawing.
I've always tried to draw more realistic things or whatever else my advanced art classes required of me. That shit is so boring--but I did it. And I was never ever satisfied.
Now that I've graduated High School I've barely drawn at all. I mean. Even when I do draw it's just my character kinda just standing there doing nothing. That's all I seem to be able to draw. Also, I seem to be stuck drawing in 3/4's view. I mean I love drawing that way because it shows more of the face detail and expression.
As much as I try to draw realistically--which by the way I don't fancy at all. Knowing it's good to be able to draw what you see blah blah I don't give a shit. Anyway.
My point is, I'm kinda just bummed that I have the talent but no inspiration or motivation to do anything with my art.
I kind of feel like it's a dead end. I just don't enjoy drawing the way that I used to. I don't draw at much--barely at all. I don't even have ideas of what to draw anymore. I just kind of feel like I'm wasting my time with drawing nowadays.
I kind of just want to work, tumblr, watch my shows and sleep. I feel like I've kinda just given up on my art. It's not really going to get me anywhere.
I don't do anything with it. And I doubt that I will--I'm horrible with due dates, I'm horrible at composition and ideas. I can barely draw or think of a good illustration. Its usually just concept art or a person standing around.
That's about it.
I wanted to rant about how much I've just kinda given up because I'm a lazy shit head that doesn't really want to do anything great with my life.
Posted it. Because, well, I felt like it. And no one else but other artists would really understand me.
No better place to post this than this site.