I am 90% of my way of eliminating my fears.
One great fear remaining is the material quality if I sell something.
-And no, I'm not ready to sell high quality stuff, but I am considering using whatever skill I do have and then just be happy if people like it because I'm very financially frustrated right now! ...going towards pretty damn screwed...
Years ago I thought only "high quality" materials were acceptable for sale, and fortunately I bought a few tubes of Golden while I still had money!
But in the past few years I have seen people buy art made with what you can buy in the local supermarket!
The girl from "My kid could paint that" or whatever the documentary is called, is using a brand I wouldn't give much credit for selling at such high prices (regardless of how low I think of her "art").
A lot of people are praising the Leningrad (international name?) watercolors, and they are to my knowledge pretty crappy in lightfastness. My knowledge may be wrong, and if it is I want some too! :p
People make a living out of painting with galeria acrylics... Cotman watercolors... They all seem more busy having the appropriate canvas and such, which is of course important too. Just doesn't help much if the colors are dulled in a year.
Then comes everything people mix into the paint!
Salt, soap, lala... I have been quilty of experimenting with salt until someone said it ruined the paper...
But assuming just for a second, hypothetically, I was to sell something I would feel so bad if I don't use what I at least myself consider high quality because I have the idea that the color will die in a matter of months if I don't.
So are my concerns fully irrational and I can use almost whatever?
-Like is the difference measured in more or less decades, even centuries, so the painting would outlive the buyer regardless?