I am taking everything at a more relaxed pace right now even though I know this school is about learning to manage deadlines. I'm also taking my therapy days off as it takes a lot out of me. Luckily the notes count to excuse my absences.
EDIT: Actually if I quit school I lose my loans and financial aid and therefore my apartment.
And I think al might be onto something. While perceived as depression/mania, I think honestly I go through cycles of self punishment. I binge eat to make myself fat so I have logical reasons to make myself feel ashamed.