Look, I am not here to be told if I should join the military, go to college, or get a job. Not here to be judged either. I don't have the energy to explain my situation over and over again so just read and answer my questions.
I am sure many of you guys had to go through tough times, even be homeless for a while.. How the fuck did you manage? Except, I doubt I will be homeless for quite a while but I prepare for the worst. My main questions are in bold. They are pretty much this:
1. Assuming I already have loads to carry, should I take my art supplies
2. What should I do with my portfolio pieces? Leave or take, especially when I don't even like them?
I read this: http://conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=144069
Even ended up finding another post rofl but won't link to it because the OP got bashed.
I hear about kids getting kicked out or leaving home. How? What do you take with you? I mean, I am sure none of you were like the idiots in the documentaries about runaway teenagers who just sprint out of home with $10, canned food, and a half-charged gameboy and end up living as male hookers on the streets of L.A.
I am thinking of taking only what I can carry with me, but maybe that's just impractical. I plan to find a job, even in a different state (preferably), find rent around the area, and then move there taking at least money, some clothes, and important documents. I am trying to be as quiet as I can about this so when I finally announce to my folks that I am going to support myself and not go to Asia with them, they can't do anything to pull me back. When I leave, I am getting absolutely no support from family and relatives (who knows the situation I am going through but they don't want to be part of it, and I can tell they're annoyed when I am around). I would ask friends, but they're all going to college and living in dorms.
What do I take with me? I have things that I want to take that are not life essentials but may prove themselves useful later on. For example, art supplies. I used them a bit so it's not like I can just sell them. I have some unopened sets, but who would want them since they're not name brand anyway? (If you're interested, send me a PM and I'll show you pictures of them)
I would like to draw and paint when I live alone, but what's the chance of drawing if I am scrambling on my feet to earn a living with a min-wage job? And, perhaps even depressed? At home, I've been depressed to the point that I haven't been drawing for a while, and when I try to draw, I only end up wasting paint. Yea, I said it. Depressed. Even went on a suicide trip until I got back to my senses. But maybe I only feel this way because of my home situation and once I go out to the world, the hardship will give me energy and will to survive.
I am not particularly good at painting so I may only end up drawing things for my own comfort and not for selling or portfolio for the first few months. I plan on taking classes for art, if I can afford it. Maybe I should just stick with digital, which I sort of hate but I am trying to learn more anyway because maybe knowing digital art will help me gain some extra income.
Speaking of portfolio, what about my previous portfolio pieces? I drew them and got accepted to SAIC, but I am not even sure if my parents want me to go to a college anymore. And these pieces.. yes, I did work hard on them but they're not "mine", you get what I mean? Like, these pieces don't represent me as an artist, I could care less if they burn in a house fire. I might as well sell them. They're so impersonal that I don't want to use them. But, should I take them anyway if I plan on entering an art college? If I don't use them, they're just going to be a burden on me.
As I said, I am trying to take only what I can carry. Is that practical? I am taking clothes and other stuff, and I am not sure if I can even fit the art tools in there. I don't have a luggage out on display in my living room or anything either because I am trying to take things one by one unnoticed. I am thinking of taking colored pencils, markers, and the miniscule stuff while leaving behind the brushes, watercolors, acrylics, oils. But then I should take them because if I want to paint again, I'll have to repurchase all those things again.. ugh.
People who leave home without parent support.. how the fuck do they do it?
Sorry if my post is just a rambling wall of text, totally unorganized. I even have a hard time forming coherent sentences in RL these days. Shit has been happening at home that got the police involved once. Have patience with me. BUT PLEASE READ IF YOU CAN before you flame me or ask me something over and over again.