Its old, it smells funny, the first pages are starting to rot, I'd rather be spending the time focusing on improvement, starting and feeling just a tiny bit more fresh. Thats how *I* work. I get discouraged and de-motivated when I have a bag of things with stuff I don't want anymore, stuff I want to be finished with, finito baam whoom crash, done. It's a mental thing, it's taking up space in my brain that i'd rather fill with new, which I'm doing right now. It does get down to that I feel a certain relief when I am done with something, it's how I work, I've tried to do it before, but I've always gone with the flow, that is the mentality of _others_, not myself, here on CA.org and gone back to doing something I ultimately don't want, or need.
I know this might look like the biggest smallest-problem in the world to some, and it feels kinda stupid going about it this seriously, but it does matters to me. This small little dumb bag of old-stuff just sits there and suck all my motivation away from picking my sketchbook up and start drawing and posting the stuff that I draw, for comments and critique, like I did way back, when stuff did felt new and fresh. I've always gone on art-hiatus, instead of the other way around, the times I've started a new sketchbook, this is not the time for a hiatus, it's a time to improve, focus on my own stuff, and feel good about doing my own work. My last sketchbook is a filled canvas. And I've tried to erase things from it that I didn't like to get space to fill with new stuff, but now the page is too worn out, its done haha.
Again, I'm sure this seems like a really stupid thing to most of you, but I don't care haha.. this is my new sketchbook, and I'm gonna stick to it, and even post some drawings in here haha.
On a sidenote :
I hope to get some crits & pointers from you, I am really liking your stuff M, and it's great everytime I see new stuff from you, always gets better. So thank you for looking, and understanding