So, I've got a place at Westminster University in London on their Illustration course.
But right now I'm at a junior placement at Sky British Broadcasting in their creative department.
Very few people get that kind of opportunity pre-uni and yet I'm not content.
Web and banner design isn't something I've never longed for - But I've always tried to be enthusiastic about broadening my knowledge, understanding and practise of a VAST variety of "art" forms. I cant say I find the type of thing they do at Sky's creative department partially enthralling. Whilst a small amount of graphical stuff is fine and enjoyable, it's not something I enjoy "full time."
I've always wanted to be "taught" illustration. By taught, I guess I mean encouraged to explore and create. And I never have. I did Fine Art A-Level and then a foundation degree, where I took the Graphics pathway - but it was VERY fine-arty.
I can't help but feel Uni might now, after-all, be a waste of my time. I've already differed my placement a year. It's a lot of money for what might not be a lot of return.
I am not in the slightest a sociable person and would be staying at home if I did go to Uni. I have NO interest in anything outside of studying when it comes to university, so this will NOT affect my choice in the slightest. Let me make that clear.
I just miss the irregularity. 9-5 every day is driving me mad. I enjoy the freedom of making my own decision of what is worth my time and it's never yet done me wrong. I feel as though I'm avoiding the inevitable prospect of work by feeling this way, though.
Any encouragement, suggestions, or anyone who can relate to how I'm feeling would really help me right now. I need to decide by June if I'm going to go back to studying... But with my "foot in the door" at Sky, is there a lot of point?