Seriously. It is true. Struggle.
I've come out of three years of fine art education, one year of pregnancy (it felt that long. Seriously. Not. Fun.) and 6months of being a mom. I've always had a terrible case of Art ADD, in that I lack focus and direction. It has always kept me from actually pushing forward and doing what needs to be done to level up. Fine Arts gave me a great theoretical/conceptual/intellectual background, but it did not give me the technical skill and the hours behind the paintbrush/pencil/charcoal stick. The pregnancy thing knocked me way more than I ever expected it to and I went into 9 months of hibernation just about. And then I had a baby. Somehow she has given me the drive to push and get to where I need to go. In the small gaps of time she allows, I am drawing drawing drawing (and sculpturing, but that's not where I'm trying to level up).
I desperately want to get my illustration skills up to a level I'm actually happy with. I'm starting with doing charcoal studies from life. Lots of quick, trying to capture the light and shadows studies. They aren't quite looking how I want, and I'm still defaulting to drawing a line instead of just focusing on the shapes, but I'm pushing. I'm going to make my brain understand this!