So, a couple of months ago I was put on Zoloft (antidepressant). One of the side affects where very vivid nightmares about spiders. Every night for almost two weeks I had these dreams.
Now I seemed to have developed an irrational fear of spiders in real life. Not just any spiders though, tarantulas, jumping spiders, those fat little garden spiders, none of them bother me. It's the quarter sized black ones with the long thin, furry legs.
It started to warm up here and there was one in my bathtub. It took me a couple of hours to psych myself up enough to spray it with bug spray. The dead body was worse though. Most of my dreams where about dead, dismembered and bloated spiders. I had to ask someone else to clean it up for me so I could take a shower. That was the worst shower of my life, I have never gone through that kind of panicky episode before.
I told my therapist about it... he just said yeah, SSRIs will do that. Like it was no big deal. It never said bad dreams on the side affects list. The psychiatrist who prescribed them to me never mentioned it. But when I looked it up, there's a known link.
I feel ruined. I've never had a problem with spiders before. I really like them actually. But now I have this constant fear in the back of my mind that I'm going to see one again, and I hate it. I've never been so jumpy and irrational before in my whole life. Even just looking at photos and drawings will set me off.