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    I'm beating cancer (warning, bit graphic)

    Hello everyone!

    Life has been moving really fast for me these past few months. My full time job went into liquidation and was absorbed by another company. I was let go, so have kind of been forced into purely freelancing lately.
    It's going well, mainly educational work, kids books, environmental awareness stuff. I'm in the process of updating my portfolio with more recreational type art and had just cleared my last commission (had to work through xmas and new years.)

    Lately, well I had not been feeling myself. Strange pains and such. I'm a hypochondriac and generally believe I have contracted any disease just by reading about it. So my first thoughts were always the big C. I was told that I was just depressed, (partly true) and not to worry.

    To cut to the chase, it is testicular cancer, after some unusual swelling I went to my doc again, who sent me to have an ultrasound on the old meat and potatoes (fun!) the nurse then called the radiologist who didnt like what he saw, I then got sent to the urologist who looked at my ultrasound images and confirmed it, cancer. The images were quite horrific, right one has been almost consumed by a fair sized tumor. This all went down on tuesday.
    But hey, I was told if you get cancer, this particular one comes highly recommended. Very treatable even in late stages. My blood has been taken and they are going to do more CT scans to check for signs of the cancer spreading.

    I am going in for surgery on Friday, they are removing my right nut through my abdomen! (They don't cut the scrotum like I thought they would)
    Being a guy, who is a total dork but who enjoys working out and at least looking tough, I was not thrilled at this prospect. But I've been told this won't affect my testosterone levels. But having kids could be an issue. Possibly.

    After the surgery, there might be either radiation or chemo, which I truly am terrified of. There's always the chance that hey, maybe this will be the cancer gone and that's what I'm gunning for, but I won't know for sure for a little while yet.

    My poor wife has been really strong about it, but she cried a lot when I got the news and was crying some more this morning. Fortunately her law firm said she can stay with me for the next couple of days. Telling my folks was unpleasant.
    Yeah, I don't really post on any boards except this one, I joined a TC support group, but am awaiting account activation. I haven't told any of my friends except my closest pal.
    I just thought given the diverse melting pot of people here and all your experiences, maybe someones even been through cancer or had similar surgery done? I'll be sure to let you guys know how it goes.
    Past couple of years have been insane, leaving the force, father in law captured in Sudan, my dog died, unemployed, cancer was the only logical next step.

    But fuck it, I've been making jokes about it, I'm not actually scared of the cancer itself. I'm more scared of the treatment. As long as I can still draw and create and I have my other half, I'm sorted.

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    mega best of luck man, let us know how it goes.
    when they stitch you up, can you ask to have an extra prosthetic one so you have 3 balls? that would be awesome.

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    You know, I only found out today that you actually get prosthetic testes!

    This whole thing has gone down so fast, there's so many questions I did not get time to ask. What's really pathetic is that medical stuff makes me feel quite sick and faint, I've been reading articles on the cancer and the surgery, but it's tough for me sometimes. I'm such a wuss.

    But knowing me, I also feel if I read -too- much about it and the things that can go wrong, I'll start stressing.

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    I didn't even know they had prosthetics down there O_o

    I know the feeling of reading about medical stuff, my sisters bed ridden and she sits there in bed all day so she can't help but read up and get stressed every now and then.


    But yeah, best of luck man. It's good to hear it sounds like a treatable kind

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    Yeah, I was just as surprised believe me. It's nice for me to be able to communicate with you guys. it's 2am at the moment, I'm busy painting. I'm staying up real late tonight so I can get a good nights rest tomorrow, I'm getting more nervous as the time approaches.

    We are in the middle of a typical african heatwave and from midnight tomorrow, I am not allowed anymore food or anything to drink. Including water. I can only have stuff again after the surgery. (Hoping they give me a pre-op pill though.)

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    Damn man good luck, kick its ass.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Jason Rainville View Post
    Damn man good luck, kick its ass.
    Yeah man, that's the attitude I want to take. It's weird, I actually do get these feelings of euphoria sometimes, I think its part of the shock but I dont know.

    I just look forward to the time when I can tell other guys who are going through the same thing that they don't need to worry.

    One thing I can't stress enough though guys, check your sacks! In all seriousness do it. A lot of the time you think that strange bump is just something you never noticed before. Cancer does not always announce itself loudly and often theres no pain.

    My pain started in my hips and not my nads but I felt something was not right, it was swollen but there was no lump as such, just one part felt harder. Because as I said, its mainly just tumor now. Check yourself or even better get your significant other to check you. I hardly drink and I cant remember the last time I smoked. TC can affect you at any age, but is most common it seems in your twenties to forties and it has no qualms about who it chooses it seems.

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    The most important thing is that you got checked fast and now you are getting treatment! One of the big dangers of cancer is never getting it checked. I wish you all the best!

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    Quote Originally Posted by Alternative View Post
    The most important thing is that you got checked fast and now you are getting treatment! One of the big dangers of cancer is never getting it checked. I wish you all the best!

    I know, I actually feel that I ignored it far longer than I should have. Sometimes I live by the whole ignorance is bliss and what you don't know can't hurt you...but that kind of fails with things like cancer. It just came from a combo of feeling the blues and always imagining that I had been struck by some kind of malady. so I did not want to go running to the doc for every little twinge. I thought I'd be peeing blood or something, but there was none of that.

    Rather be safe than sorry, nobody wants to get an ultrasound on their balls or have their junk felt up by strange people (well maybe some folks do, I don't know.) but the alternative is far worse.

    The urologist was a bit of a comedian though, he wanted to examine them so I said "Shit man, why not, half the worlds seen it by now" to which he replied "Oh! You should start selling tickets then."

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    Well.

    You just totally trumped the fact I dropped my toothbrush in the toilet this morning.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Stoat View Post
    Well.

    You just totally trumped the fact I dropped my toothbrush in the toilet this morning.
    Yeah, it's a real pain in the balls.

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    Kick its arse man, I was diagnosed with non hodgkins lymphoma a few years back and had a swelling the size of an egg removed from my leg near my scrotum, then did radiation therapy every day for 6 weeks. I also had to freeze some man-fluid just in case I went sterile from the radiation, but luckily they seem to be fine, and I still have little swimmers. My uncle had TC and made a full recovery too. I know all about freaking myself out reading abut things on the net, so my best advice is to get informed and then stop it!

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    Quote Originally Posted by timpaatkins View Post
    Kick its arse man, I was diagnosed with non hodgkins lymphoma a few years back and had a swelling the size of an egg removed from my leg near my scrotum, then did radiation therapy every day for 6 weeks. I also had to freeze some man-fluid just in case I went sterile from the radiation, but luckily they seem to be fine, and I still have little swimmers. My uncle had TC and made a full recovery too. I know all about freaking myself out reading abut things on the net, so my best advice is to get informed and then stop it!
    Wow Tim, lymphoma is something that always scared me. I'm really happy for you! Yes, the sperm freezing is something I just learned about now that all this has gone down. Glad everything is still working as it should. How was your healing process from the surgery if I may ask?

    Kudos to your uncle as well. Thanks for that.

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    I'm sorry to hear it, that sucks so bad. My friend had the same thing. He's about 27 or so. It was hurting whenever he'd stand up and stuff so he went in and I guess it was bad enough they scheduled him for surgery the very next day. The surgery itself was really no big deal, he was all drugged up and went home like that night after it was over. It was sore for quite a few days but other than that, he pulled through pretty well. He had some radiation but I don't think he needed chemo or at least not much if any. He denied the prosthetic 'cause they told him they'd have to open him back up to put it in but maybe it's possible to do it the first time when you're already open? I don't know.

    Anyway best of luck to you. I don't know what you believe in but if it means anything to you, I'll consider you in my prayers. Hope for the best.

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    Quote Originally Posted by manlybrian View Post
    I'm sorry to hear it, that sucks so bad. My friend had the same thing. He's about 27 or so. It was hurting whenever he'd stand up and stuff so he went in and I guess it was bad enough they scheduled him for surgery the very next day. The surgery itself was really no big deal, he was all drugged up and went home like that night after it was over. It was sore for quite a few days but other than that, he pulled through pretty well. He had some radiation but I don't think he needed chemo or at least not much if any. He denied the prosthetic 'cause they told him they'd have to open him back up to put it in but maybe it's possible to do it the first time when you're already open? I don't know.

    Anyway best of luck to you. I don't know what you believe in but if it means anything to you, I'll consider you in my prayers. Hope for the best.
    Yeah, I turned 30 this month. I'm really hoping that I get to go home that night! I really don't want to spend the night in hospital, but I've been told they may want to keep me there. To be honest Brian, I'm not really interested in getting a prosthetic either. Yes, please pray for me, I do appreciate it.

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    Thanks Deepinonespersona!

    You guys have cheered me up a lot, thanks for all the good wishes so far. Feeling it a bit tonight, apart from the aching of the legs and such, it feels like somebody kicked me there about 5 minutes ago. You know the feeling, that last bit of pain after you get smacked there, but its like all the time. It has different degrees of severity though.

    Anyway, I'd say I'm going to hit the sack now, but that would be below the belt. (I can't help it, I've got nads on the brain, it's like I'm going nuts...)

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    Good luck on the procedure. Any surgery below the belt would give me the jitters.

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    I used to work in a radiologists office and saw many people pull through cancer, my mother in fact has made it through 2 different times. That's good that it is a very treatable kind. I have nothing but true belief that you can pull through this, the human body is an amazing thing. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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    Tough news star eater but to me it sounds like you have balls of steel about the whole situation. Humor and optimism is the best way to hang in their in my opinion and keep things in perspective. The hardest part always seems to be letting family and friends know. Had to go through this situation twice in my family, mom diagnosed with lung cancer and passed when i was 15, currently dad is fighting prostate cancer that might have spread. The best way he looks at it though is, he knows the problem and adjusts to the procedures to help give him a fighting chance. Nothing more he can do except take care of himself and not let it hinder him from enjoying life. He is going through his "bucket list" routine though and headed out west to Vegas and the other states to do what he always wanted to do. At least times like this it helps put things into perspective you know? Fondle the hell out of this situation!

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    Long ago, my lymph nodes were swollen. I thought it might be cancer, and so I went for an appointment for ultrasound. Before the ultrasound, nothing really changed emotionally. It might sound weird, but I accepted the possibility of death optimistically. I thought about all of the annoying things I don't have to do in life, such as taking general education prerequisites before graduation in college. Then after the ultrasound, they confirmed it was not cancer. And again, nothing changed emotionally.

    The latest life changing thing in my life was when my grandpa died. As a tradition, families, relatives, and friends spends a few days mourning. It really got me thinking how precious time really is during those half day mourning sessions, because before I may know it, my grandma will be dead and there goes more precious drawing time.

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    Best of luck, Star Eater. And don't worry too much - many cancers are today highly treatable. A friend of mine had breast cancer some years ago, and they simply cut it out and she's okay. Didn't even have to do chemo. Your case may be different, and as far as I know chemo is unpleasant, but it saves lives.

    You'll any event still have more balls than our entire parliament... :-)

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    Best of luck man! really sorry to hear that!
    I will wait with the jokes till it's healed up.

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    Me too, kick it's ass man! Get better soon!

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    Good luck! Hope everything turns out all right!

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    Shit dude, you were too manly for us anyway, now we have a chance to be boys in comparison to you.

    In all seriousness mate, all the best with everything, thankfully it's highly treatable as you said, and good on you for being able to have a joke about it. You can still draw and that's important. Sorry to hear about this regardless and hope you get all better'd up soon.

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    Best of luck Star! You'll beat it down for sure.

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    Good luck with the surgery, i wish ya all the best!

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