Sometimes my attempts to be loose result in lower standards. Someimes i will mindlessly make a stroke and not realize it.
SHould i always be objective everytime i put down a stroke?

I look at art thats really clean.. Where they have messy sketching but its cleaner than mine and wonder what is up with that.

This may sound like a silly question but its really important to me. I don't want to be messy. I've always had messy handwriting and wonder if it has something to do with that. Think it is lazyness?