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    I think I'm going insane.. no really, I think I am

    I think I'm going insane.. Last night I couldn't completely fall asleep because my brain somehow made me confused over something I normally wouldn't be confused over. I can't really explain it but it made me so dizzy and confused that I felt really bad.. like sickly bad. I had to get up and sit down and wait it out and focus my thoughts on nothing-ness. And today I still feel dizzy and that confusing feeling is still scraping my mind.

    It made no sense, it was like I was awake and sleeping at the same time and I was feeling reaaaally paranoid.. I recently took a shower thinking it'd shake the feeling off but it didn't. I'm still really tired, like I'm just about to fall asleep and I've felt like this the entire day.

    Am I loosing it?

    No seriously, am I? What the hell is this, I've never before experienced anything like this.


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    I'll try to explain what I was thinking about the other night, although I don't think it has anything to do with what's going on but I guess it might be interesting.

    It's like I fell asleep but didn't start sleeping. It's like that feeling when you're trying to sleep but there's something in the room keeping you awake and it drives you crazy. But for me, it was this weird thought that made me go crazy and it didn't even make sense. I was somehow thinking about contracts (I signed a contract for my next apartment recently) and for some reason I started thinking "what is a contract, really? do they control my life? is it something that exists but still not exists but it's still controlling me?" stuff like that. I can't completely remember everything. I had to get up, go to the kitchen and sit still, but it still haunted my brain it was like thoughts I was thinking even though I tried not to. I woke up my girlfriend and said "HELP ME I CAN'T STOP THINKING MAKE IT STOP I THINK I'M GOING INSANE WTF IS GOING ON" lol. I sat still for like 15 minutes and went to sleep focusing on things like.. flying or walking an never ending road.. something completely mindless. It made it go away.

    Thinking about it, this happened once before. But it was a bit different.
    That time I had sores on my lips that was itching and I couldn't fall asleep. But during that night it wasn't exactly that that kept me from falling asleep. It was a word I was looking for but I couldn't find it and I kept thinking of it until I got it and when I did, I started making up these crazy theories again that made no sense what so ever. But then again, the sores on my lip was the thing that kept me from falling asleep.. but I'm still a bit unsure if the thought would have kept going on even if I didn't have sores. Because that night I had to get up and sit down for about 20 minutes before I could go to bed (I also put some ice on the sore so it would numb my lip).



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    Most likely you're suffering stress. It comes in all sorts of forms, but I think much of what you've said can come from chronic stress. (the paranoa, insomnia and even cold sores can be symptoms, I believe)

    The lack of sleep from the stress might be making your thoughts a little dis-jointed.
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    there was a time when i was like this, but that was when i was in the beginning of my highschool years.

    This thought of everyone is not real was on my mind. They are not real human, i can kill them and they will still be alive.
    It was crazy i tell ya


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    Quote Originally Posted by Oni Rem View Post
    there was a time when i was like this, but that was when i was in the beginning of my highschool years.

    This thought of everyone is not real was on my mind. They are not real human, i can kill them and they will still be alive.
    It was crazy i tell ya
    Interesting you say that, Allot of people in their teens experience sensations like that. I'm sure there's a term for it, but I can't remember. :/


    Also, I forgot to mention that I'm pretty sure that you're not going crazy, Loathsome. Everyone gets times like that at some point, mainly when stressed +tired.
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    Nothing to worry about. Unless it's syphilis.

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    Its most probably stress related and the way you describe it it was not even a panic attack. maybe some mild anxiety attack or something.

    There is a very large number of people suffering from depressions, panic and anxiety disorder and other things, it is treatable and let me assure you, no one ever died of it unless driven to commit suicide of course but that is a whole different story...
    Unless you have this symptoms fairly often you don't need to worry about it.
    If it happens again you best do something to relax, open TV or some music, open the light or call a friend and have a small talk, it will help.

    It often is connected with physical health as well, doing some exercises will help, healthy food and going to sleep in time. Go out more often, get some sun.
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    It's stress+exhaustion. When i was younger I used to play Diablo 2 late at night for 3 or 4 hours, just before going to sleep. When i got in the bed I just couldn't sleep, but I wasn't perfectly awake either. All i was thinking about was how i change my gear, kill monsters and stuff... it was crazy, I wanted it to stop, but my brain just continued to "play" the game. I often got some good items, so when I started to play the next day i was disappointed to not find them in the real game. I really felt crazy back then, but it was just exhaustion and playing too much when i had to sleep instead.

    Try to relax in some way. It looks like something is troubling you. Turn off all electronics for two days and sleep as much as you can. Just recharge your brain.

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    I have to go quick, but what I think you experienced is "Night Terrors?"

    http://www.nightterrors.org/

    Don't worry you are not going crazy. You get that sensation of raw fear? Almost like the end tail of a nightmare even though you are awake, someone in an art class was talking about it and he was a grown man. Who seemed normal to me.

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    Firstly; thanks for the comments (very quick too, wow), it surely did put me to ease a bit. I just hope it doesn't happen again.

    SO, Yeah it might be true like most of you say; stress.
    I've been signing contracts, calling and contacting a bunch of people "important" things so to speak. I'm also moving out for the first time and I've been rushing around buying furniture and all kinds of stuff. Plus intense art studies on top all that. So stress might be it. There are still a few things that puzzle me that I can't figure out.

    I've for example seen faces in my wall when waking up when I was 13-14 and I've hallucinated tetris-looking blocks falling when I was even younger. Like I was sleeping but still awake. It's pretty crazy.. that's why I'm worried that it could be something really bad like a disease or something. So by having that intense experience last night really frightened me.

    I've been reading up on sleeping disorder things too and I've found a lot of things that relate to what I've experienced so I might visit the doctor just to be on the safe side. I don't want anything bad to happen.

    Quote Originally Posted by R a n d i s View Post
    Its most probably stress related and the way you describe it it was not even a panic attack. maybe some mild anxiety attack or something.

    There is a very large number of people suffering from depressions, panic and anxiety disorder and other things, it is treatable and let me assure you, no one ever died of it unless driven to commit suicide of course but that is a whole different story...
    Unless you have this symptoms fairly often you don't need to worry about it.
    If it happens again you best do something to relax, open TV or some music, open the light or call a friend and have a small talk, it will help.

    It often is connected with physical health as well, doing some exercises will help, healthy food and going to sleep in time. Go out more often, get some sun.
    That's probably it. I don't have it very often, I've had it before but mildly. This was pretty intense, though and it totally frightened the shit out of me. But anyway I really appreciate your comment, man! I'll make sure to stop stressing myself out and to relax whenever something like this happens again.

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    It's stress+exhaustion. When i was younger I used to play Diablo 2 late at night for 3 or 4 hours, just before going to sleep. When i got in the bed I just couldn't sleep, but I wasn't perfectly awake either. All i was thinking about was how i change my gear, kill monsters and stuff... it was crazy, I wanted it to stop, but my brain just continued to "play" the game. I often got some good items, so when I started to play the next day i was disappointed to not find them in the real game. I really felt crazy back then, but it was just exhaustion and playing too much when i had to sleep instead.

    Try to relax in some way. It looks like something is troubling you. Turn off all electronics for two days and sleep as much as you can. Just recharge your brain.
    Yeah that sounds very alike to things I've been experiencing.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Pigeonkill View Post
    I have to go quick, but what I think you experienced is "Night Terrors?"

    http://www.nightterrors.org/

    Don't worry you are not going crazy. You get that sensation of raw fear? Almost like the end tail of a nightmare even though you are awake, someone in an art class was talking about it and he was a grown man. Who seemed normal to me.

    If anything check up with a doctor if it continues.
    Yeah I was really scared. I even said to my girlfriend when I was "awake" that something is out to get me.

    Nightterrors.. I'll look into that. Thanks.

    edit: I've never heard of night terrors before, and after looking into it. That's totally what I've been experiencing. It makes a lot of sense.
    Thanks!
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    I used to get night terrors when I was nine, like every night for months on a row. I actually ended up getting used to them.

    Aren't you more likely to get night terrors when you're stressed too?

    I'd always get them weeks before exams too.
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    Seeing faces in inanimate stuff is called pareidolia. Its just how the imagination works. Lots of stuff just looks like faces and the mind registers it like a face. Even this looks like a face, right?

    Basically, you are experiencing anxiety. I highly recommend regular exercise (particularly aerobic exercise) and fresh air, make sure your neck muscles aren't crazy tight, and a strong shower will help you relax if you need it.

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    I immediately thought of this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tetris_effect

    And this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleep_paralysis But it sounds more like a tetris effect or a hypnagogia state.

    @kev: Exercise is good. 15 minutes should be enough though, because over-exercising can sometimes be stimulating to the brain.

    Night terrors is more like something that happens mostly during sleep though, I think.

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    i do that whole playing games/going through later chapters in books that im reading while half awake thing, i think it's called hypnagogic something, i never remember anything from when i do it, except when i write something down during this state and i wake up later and it's something really stupid that i thought was really great/important at the time. i assume it's like being high and how people think they have these great ideas when they smoke pot but can only remember 1 or 2 things from it

    and sometimes when im looking at a screen for too long, especially when it's dark in the room, for a moment i get this weird kind of vertigo, like im not really in my body, like how some people describe looking down at their body from above or having an out of body experience. but that's only ever lasted for a second or two

    and this one time when i was apparently asleep but my mom was asking me something and you know how you will reply to someone and then later you dont remember saying anything, well i woke up while i was talking to her, and i got this weird sensation like my brain didnt work and i was still dreaming, and i think it actually hurt a little bit, but i dont remember how, and i had to shake my head for a minute/lay down until it got back to normal

    so ive had a couple of weird experiences like that, but nothing that ever made me feel like i was losing my mind

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    Quote Originally Posted by velderia View Post
    @kev: Exercise is good. 15 minutes should be enough though, because over-exercising can sometimes be stimulating to the brain.
    What the? More than 15 minutes is over-exercising? I can't say I've ever come home from an hour-long bike ride more stressed than I was before it and I'm so lazy I've got potato sprouts growing out my dimples.
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    This happens when I take nasal decongestants before bed. D: Never again.

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    Just relax. Try setting a day of the week to completely unwind. Get yoga or meditation lessons.

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    I felt like this when i got robbed earlier this year. i was afraid of myself. =/

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    Yeah I'd say that's the sort of stress you suffer from when you've been suffering from stress for a few months without a let up. It happened to me (though not exactly those symptoms) and the unfortunate thing I found is when you let the stress go on and on like that until months pass by, a quick trip to the spa and sleeping in isn't going to cut it-- the wind down is going to take time.

    My recommendation is take a walk somewhere pleasant and quiet. Bring a book if you'd like. Don't go out with any expectations on yourself like "I'm going to be out this long" or "I'll read this many chapters" or "I'll take a break and this and this point." Just walk, breathe fresh air, and don't hold yourself to any demands.
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    Quote Originally Posted by vineris View Post
    What the? More than 15 minutes is over-exercising? I can't say I've ever come home from an hour-long bike ride more stressed than I was before it and I'm so lazy I've got potato sprouts growing out my dimples.
    Eh... Okay. But still, I heard too much exercise, right before you sleep, can be over-doing it. Somewhere between 15-1 hour, depending on how much you do a day or week, etc. Something like that.

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    That sounds familiar.. Next time it happens, try make some hot milk and honey. Watch videos of kittens on youtube or play an online game, preferably one that requires you to focus on it, while drinking the hot milk.
    It takes a while, but usually helps

    If you usually get headaches after this it might also be migraines.

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    Everyone can only give you their OPINIONS.

    but honestly you shouldnt take anything that we say as authoritative

    only you know your body and your mind. and if you feel that something isnt right then go see someone. thats the best thing you can do. If you are in college go hit up the student affairs (usually they offer a few free sessions with a therapist). Or, you can just call up a therapist and see what you can arrange for your budget.

    Anyways, sitting around getting advice from people on the internet is not going to help...

    Get off the computer, get some fresh air, and if you think you really have a problem go see someone.

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    Quote Originally Posted by velderia View Post
    Eh... Okay. But still, I heard too much exercise, right before you sleep, can be over-doing it. Somewhere between 15-1 hour, depending on how much you do a day or week, etc. Something like that.
    Actually ideally you should take at least one hours walk outside everyday.
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    Someone who is going insane doesn't normally know they're going insane. What you're going through sounds anxiety and stress. If it keeps happening and you want it to go away, then look up a therapist and work it out.

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    Sounds like night terrors, I used to get them when I was younger, I suffered a trauma and got P.T.S.D (I didn't know at the time) and that included panic attacks before going to sleep which led to vivid nightmares and waking up with sleep paralysis in the middle of the night in the half wake/half asleep state you mentioned.

    Not that I'm an expert but judging from the advice here it wouldn't harm you to schedule some holiday time and properly relax if you can, moving is very stressful, maybe afterwards? Also I don't know if you like camomile tea? I swear by it before bed now, very calming

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    Quote Originally Posted by Naidy View Post
    Interesting you say that, Allot of people in their teens experience sensations like that. I'm sure there's a term for it, but I can't remember. :/


    Also, I forgot to mention that I'm pretty sure that you're not going crazy, Loathsome. Everyone gets times like that at some point, mainly when stressed +tired.
    sooo wanting to kill when i was younger is not going crazy o.O

    anyway....good thing i dont feel like that now hehee x]


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    Quote Originally Posted by tobbA View Post
    Actually ideally you should take at least one hours walk outside everyday.
    Okay, okay, nevermind. It's just something I read. Fuck wikipedia for being easy. ><'

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