Results 1 to 30 of 34
Thread: Beating My Addictions
January 26th, 2010 #1
Beating My Addictions
Starting today I am going to attempt to regain my life and beat several of my addictions. The two that I will be targeting are my addictions to the Internet and to (online) shopping.
Over the past few years I have become increasingly dependent upon the Internet, to the point were I spend on average hundreds of hours a week on the computer. As a result, there have been a multitude of negative consequences. I barely draw anymore, I practically never read, my social life has literally disintegrated, and my grades and school work have plummeted. All of these are a direct result of my compulsive Internet usage. Instead of doing things that exercise my brain, and things that I used to enjoy extremely much, I waste my life doing utter bullshit on the Internet. My life has been rotting away in front of my eyes.
Through my Internet addiction I have developed many limiting neuroses, the biggest of which is a general fear of human contact. In order to counteract this, I will delete my Facebook account and limit my time spent on the Internet to only one hour a day. This means that I will not spend very much time on this website, or any other. I have even disabled Internet connection on my computer.
I feel that as a result my depression will lighten significantly, and I will hopefully regain purpose in my, essentially, hopeless life.
The second addiction, shopping, more specifically the obsessive consumption of records and CDs, is perhaps more potent as it has significantly impacted the lives of others. I have purchased many records, mostly with borrowed, pocketed, or outright taken money in order to fulfill my need to collect more and more music. I owe my parents hundreds, perhaps even thousands of dollars, and I am at a point where I feel essentially no joy from buying records. Any money that comes into my possession, I spend on records, despite my enormous debt, and I have even gone to the point of not eating in order to spend my lunch money on more music. This contributes to my overall regret when buying music and I feel horrible about my debt to my parents.
When I first started collecting CDs, and eventually records, it was a really big deal when I would buy a new item. It was something that gave a huge amount of joy. When other joy in my life started to decrease, I started buying more and more music because, at that time, it still gave me a lot of pleasure. Now I'm at a point where I don't even normally enjoying buying music, in fact most of the time it's met with remorse. I'm just "doing it" as much as possible to try to "get a high" off of it. It's no different than if I was into crack... I buy records to compromise for what I don't have in life. I love the music and I love records, but I don't kneed to buy as many as I do.
Both of these are true addictions, things that I long to continue and yet serve no benefit upon my life. I hope that you will help me beat both of them.
To my foreign friends, you may contact me via email (of which I will also greatly limit my time) at info @ kobrinkustoms . com (no spaces) or even by phone at [USA dialing code] - (415) - 686 - 7972. In fact, I would encourage you contact me by phone because my extreme discomfort of communicating via telephone is one of the neuroses I have developed over the past few years.
Hide this ad by registering as a member
The Following User Says Thank You to OldJake666 For This Useful Post:
January 26th, 2010 #2
January 26th, 2010 #3
Well, good luck! Making a public promise and getting it out there helps, since its easier to "cheat" if you're the only one who knows about your resolution. Be sure to tell your parents and friends as well, since only going public on the interwebs is still "cheating".
I've found that the best way to beat addictions is to "don't fuckin' do it." and replacing bad addictions with more productive ones.
January 26th, 2010 #4
Buy a Netgear router. Then you'll be lucky if you can get on the f*cking thing at all
January 26th, 2010 #5
January 26th, 2010 #6
Good for you! I too had an addiction to MMORPGs and a fear of phones. I quit cold turkey and started making calls even when I didn't need to (for instance if an email was provided). I've focused myself on things that I deem 'good' for my development (reading books, much more sketchbook drawing, and talking to people face to face) and I feel much better for it. At least, I'm on a better path of life, even if I haven't reached my goals yet.
January 26th, 2010 #7Registered User
- Join Date
- Aug 2005
- Thanked 535 Times in 145 Posts
Idleness is a bitch... A total fucking bitch.
January 26th, 2010 #8
January 26th, 2010 #9
January 26th, 2010 #10
January 26th, 2010 #11
I had a pretty unproductive day today, in fact I do a lot of days, so thanks Farvus for that Firefox add-on. It should prove to be awesome for catching up with stuff tomorrow (and the days beyond!)
January 26th, 2010 #12Procrastinator
- Join Date
- Feb 2008
- New York
- Thanked 759 Times in 157 Posts
Why records and CDs? Isn't it cheaper to use itunes or amazon? Anyway, I don't think it's wise to put up your phone number for all to see.
January 26th, 2010 #13
I have an internet addiction since like 10 years ago, many times tried to beat it, never could
I need to be connected more than 6 hours a day, not that I die if I don`t, but it`s a habit that makes me loose too much time that I could use in more important things.
This could be a very good year to do it... how can you, like, limit yourself to use the internet for 3 hours only per day or something? it`s impossible in my mind, it would be awesome if I could.
January 26th, 2010 #14
I should follow suit. I spent about 16 hours on the computer if i'm not going to college. And if i am i spend whatever time is left till i sleep on it. I don't even draw much now.
Stupid youtube, and wiki.
Hope you all the best with with the liberation.
January 27th, 2010 #15
The Following User Says Thank You to FourTonMantis For This Useful Post:
January 27th, 2010 #16
Way to go, Jake. Lowering my online time is something I need to do myself. :/
January 27th, 2010 #17
Retail therapy eh, like woman and shoe’s? Be glad you don't have a credit card.
What records do you buy? Sounds interesting.
Scetchbook: View the exhibitionist's stuff.
January 27th, 2010 #18Registered User
- Join Date
- Nov 2009
- The Netherlands
- Thanked 335 Times in 122 Posts
I think it's pretty brave of you to just admit all of this in public, and I wish you the best of luck
Are you going to use this thread to keep us updated, or?
January 27th, 2010 #19
January 27th, 2010 #20
All the best Jake. By the sound of it you've got a nice selection of music. Set yourself an art project where each day you listen to a different CD/Record and draw/paint through the entire time. Title the pieces you create the titles of the CD/Record and then post em up on here. I recon that would make for quite a cool series of works and it kills a few other birds with the same stone.
January 27th, 2010 #21
Good luck Jake!
Actually, your at a great crossroads now. You have the opportunity to replace one addiction with another (I do believe that is human nature) Make sure you make it a productive one. If I where you, Id take up walking or running every other day. I get some of my best thinking done when my body is on autopilot. So many new ideas on painting and seeing new things.
Make sure you change routes so you dont get bored. You'll clear your head and be healthier. Spend a hundred bucks on some good running shoes. Then they'll stare at you from the corner wondering why you aren't using them. And most importantly, you wont fuck up your knees like i did.
It will be difficult in the beginning, you'll have to force yourself. but it will be worth it.
[url=http://galleryonefone.blogspot.com[/url] This would be my gallery in Sweden
This would be my Pleine Air blog
January 27th, 2010 #22
Tip: Put postit notes EVERYWHERE.
I also had a bit of an addiction with chocolate and other sweets aswell as soda before, not that big but I bought now and then when I wasn't supposed to, and you know sugar makes you lazy and keeps you from being productive. Then one day I forced myself to stop some months ago, and haven't eaten anything containing sugar at all since then! I feel a lot better now and got more stamina for both school and my art-studies. Nowadays when I walk past the candy-section in the stores, I feel nothing. Absolutely nothing. No cravings for chocolate or anything sweet as I used to have when I walked down that section. Sugar really is addictive and dangerous for your health and productiveness.
It is a great feeling being able to beat your addictions.
"I wish to paint in such a manner as if I were photographing dreams" - Zdzislaw BeksinskiMy Happy Little Sketchbook, please check it out and help me get better!
January 27th, 2010 #23
Jake, I've had a similar strain over the last few months. I can't say that the internet is an addiction to me, because I don't have internet at home - only at work, where I'm not suppose to use it - and I don't have much trouble surviving without it. But I do get lazy, especially when I'm down. My remedy has, ironically, been the internet. I've spent extra time at work, watching interviews with people that I admire and that influence my life and reading up sterile wiki articles on things I know fuckall about (everything from abiogenesis to Superstring theory).
In particular, a certain Omar Rodrigues-Lopez Interview gave me a complete change of heart. I'll try find the link some other time. This man is crazy busy. He has, by his own estimates, about 17 unreleased albums which he cannot release all at once (why not, I ask!). He's also set to premiere his first feature film which he executed, essentially, in his spare time. He paints, he composes, he acts, he directs, he's just about one of the most prolific people I've ever come across.
It inspires me, and I would not have been inspired if I didn't see the internet as a tool to further my own knowledge and horizons. As a result I've gone gun-ho and am tackling about 6-7 different projects right now. I feel completely up to it.
Maybe, instead of seeing internet as a pass-time, see it as a tool. If you do this correctly, you'll likely get off the internet and start doing something new and awesome long before your self-imposed alloted daily allowance runs out.
January 27th, 2010 #24Procrastinator
- Join Date
- Feb 2008
- New York
- Thanked 759 Times in 157 Posts
The Following User Says Thank You to hippl5 For This Useful Post:
January 27th, 2010 #25
January 27th, 2010 #26"I wish to paint in such a manner as if I were photographing dreams" - Zdzislaw BeksinskiMy Happy Little Sketchbook, please check it out and help me get better!
The Following User Says Thank You to LORD M For This Useful Post:
January 27th, 2010 #27
Wow, what great problems to have.
I mean, seriously? You owe your parents thousands? And they still "loan" you money? That's more their fault than yours I suppose; I would be addicted to cd's and free money too.
Dude, if you want to save face when you get out of the teenage angst years, stop posting this kinda crap, for real. Get your parents to send you to a therapist or something. Airing such silly dirty laundry to the community you want to become a professional in, well, it's just no benefit to the future Jake Kobrin.
January 28th, 2010 #28
Jake, you're a cool kid, man. You gotta realize that and stop beating yourself up all the time and shit.
it's good that you want to cut back on the unnecessary stuff, though.
* Help a CA artist! Visit the Constructive Critique section! *
January 28th, 2010 #29
Dude I feel like cotron made some good points here.
This internet and buying 'addiction' is something most teens of this generation go through, as a consequence of the society we live in. There are so many worse things that you could have an addiction for.
nonetheless, good luck turning things around
Last edited by Jasper_; January 28th, 2010 at 01:59 AM.
January 28th, 2010 #30
Man, now i want chocolate!
The Following User Says Thank You to Slash For This Useful Post: