01 / 10 / 09 - living the dream
captains log, art, everywere. times, goood. improvment, much. danger, everywere . . .
12 / 04 / 09 - a change in mentalitys, time to update the 'mission plan'
So, 4 months / 18 weeks/ 126 days or 3024 hours have passed since i
commited to developing my artistic skill set. Daaaayyyuuuum! what a
fucking journey. Theres definately been some development
...Only i kinda missed the target... instead i've been on a crazy journey of
its like, in the past 4 months i've finished laying the foundations of me, i've
filled in all the craters that growing up creates and reached the point were
i'll to go back a little and put this in context
i start making art, i enjoy making art, i work to get better at making art, i
take pride from making art - i label myself as a artist.
i feel bad - i take comfort from the fact i'm a artist (validating myself and
whatever situation ive gotten into) - i create art to re-affirm this belief - it
dosnt work (i fuck up for whatever reason, dumb hands that day) - i freak
then i become 'scared' of making art, because i need to protect my precious
label! if i keep being bad at making art, im not a artist and then what am i?
you see this is probably the main cause for all the art-block/need-
inspiratin/lost my drive threads that appear every other day
but now, ive got to a point were i'm completely self-amusing, i do what i do
because it amuses me and thats it!
and then on-top of that i've learnt that my brain only cares about survival,
its like "fuuuck dan you dont need to move, were alive right here, why
waste energy doing whatever, were perfectly fine right now" and i see that
bad emotions arnt a valid excuse to not take action
so to cut my diary entry short, i came, i saw and now its time to start
ok.. time to get this show on the road, i'll start off by ditching some old stuff and move up to the new stuff.
only got digitial camera at the moment, gonna get a scanner asap.
if you can spot any errors no matter how obvious please point them out, even if you cant offer a solution. part of fixing a problem is recognizing it..
anyway... heeerree gooes