Well, I didn't know a better way to put it other than to tell a story I was saving for when I got famous:
When I was a teen, like most people here, I used to do dirty little sketches for fun and joke around with friends. These weren't anything good; just something done really fast for fun. I stopped doing it some time ago and shortly after I got my new job doing web design at, of all places, a porn company, I'm doing again, largely for work.
For the past year, the script for a comic book has been on my desk and not one page has been finished. On top of that, I have a bunch of pieces in my sketch book just sitting there waiting to be developed.
Basically, what I'm getting to is this; I can do these dirty little doodles really fast because no one but me and a friend are going to see these things. There's no pressure and it's just for fun. On the other end of the spectrum is sitting at a big fancy art desk where I'm trying to just layout a page and get some basics down and getting frustrated after spending a good 2 hours just doodling something that would otherwise take me 20 seconds in a sketchbook because it has to be "perfect".
In short, I've got stage fright and not sure what to do anymore. I've tried just about everything:
I've tried drawing in a new environment so I'm not stuck behind a desk and making it a "ritual". It's great for sketching, but drawing in public is more a novelty than an actual process, and the results are always lackluster.
I've tried acting like the piece I'm working on is just like my sketchbook. Doesn't work because it's hard to pretend your playing your guitar in your living room when your in front of 10,000 people.
I've also tried just sitting down and drawing. No use, it still leads to nothing to be proud of.
One thing I haven't tried, and am considering, is just skipping the middle man, if you will. Instead of trying to layout a piece on the actual page, just blowing up a sketch and drawing from that. It does work sometimes, but I'm always correcting everything that I see wrong proportionally and, yet again, I'm back to square one.
So, does anyone have some good advice here? I'm stuck in a loop where my sketches are better than my finishes, and I would love to know what's a good way of changing this.